Actress Confessions

Day 362 - A New Day - Lesson Learned

I beat myself up really hard yesterday, (Read Day 361 for a full update) I wallowed in the fact that I didn't bring my A game to class. The truth is I have to learn from this, because when I'm auditioning with others regardless of what they look like or how much experience they have I can't let myself get caught up on it.

Coincidentally after my horrible class, I had to hold auditions for the webseries. It was interesting to see actors audition and bring their A game. Some however, like I did in class brought their B or C or D game.

I got it...you have to be able to perform when they say "action". No one cares at any other time, but you have to be present and call up performances when they tell you too.

Otherwise what's the point.

I'm on it...I'm going to do this. A renewed focus.

What I Learned

362. Lesson Learned - Move forward.

Day 359 -361 - I F#!*ed Up and It's All My Fault

I had the most horrible day...

Over the last couple of days I'm been really focused on preparing a piece for my advanced acting class with this great teacher that I've heard a lot about. He basically teaches some really big names in this industry...

It was my first class but I let myself get the better of me.

I was consumed by fear as I watched the model looking, beautiful people grace the presence of that acting studio...

I was consumed by fear when I realized that many of them had been professionally acting for a long time...and I felt like an amateur.

I was consumed with fear when I walked to the front of the class and tried...yes tried to work on my piece, only to be told by the big wig teacher that I wasn't present as an actor in class at all (I was faking it). He called me out on it... and he deserves to.... because he was right.

I F#!*ed Up and It's all my fault...

I let myself get hung up on all the bad in me that I never brought anything to the table. I was there but not really there and it showed in my work. Self doubt is not a quality that is going to get me working in this business.

I feel sad and a bit broken.

What I Learned

359 - 361 - Self reflection of the good, bad and ugly helps you work through it.

 

Day 358 - BOOKED! Theatre Gig!

Yippee! I got it! I got the theatre gig for the Summerworks festival!

I'm really excited about this opportunity because it is a great showcase for talent.  I feel that all the classes, all the auditions and all the pain and suffering is finally paying off!

Yeah for me!

What I Learned

358. Hard work eventually pays off!